Confused and tired

Its like nothing has changed at all. I still think the exact same way, I'm still doing the same thing as always but most importantly I still feel the exact same way. I can't figure out why it means so much to me that i just cant let go. As much as I would like to I just can't. I've tried but no matter how hard i just end up back where i started. The way i feel is just beyond reason. I don't quite know what went wrong or how it went wrong all i know is i miss her now. I can't really define the way I am feeling right now. However through all this confusion there is one thing i know for sure and that one thing is the only one i know for sure. The struggle to realize the truth is a hard one.